Friday, February 09, 2007
"A Letter For My Papa"
Dear Papa,
Papa, how are u lately? Long time no see!! Lots of things had happened lately.. And it makes me missing u sometimes. Mama hospitalized. Jie almost quarrel with Jiefu, money's fault. Sisi's problem.. Peer relationship.. Responsibility arguments.. Housing??? People accusing me of ignoring them purposely.. Scolding me "No-manner".. Pointin their finger at me and says I m wrong thou I m already down to my knee.. Worst still, problems came hand-in-hand during my exams period.. Papa.. M stress!!!! M worrying abt my exams.. BUt I ve no mood to study.. Papa, I lost to this battle thou its not a big matter.. I losing e immunity which I used to have.. I m tired!!! Very tired... its been 6 years.. Yet I still have to carry on with it.. Sigh!! I HATE IT!!!
I dun feel like staying in school le, Papa... its not my world anymore I suppose.. I lost my school pillar.. How???
I really wish to tell u everything.. Share with u what I wanna share.. Could u come back please??
I wish to introduce to u my frens.. tellin u how we prank in our every day life..
Tellin u tt I got a BF.. whom I really wanna marry to.. spend the rest of my life with him..
Hoping to see u laughing and chatting with him.. Watching u patting his shoulder and says "take good care of her!!"... Witness him as my blanket in the winter.... However, this seems to be appeared only in my dream..
I envy my 2 Jie-jie.. I had been longing for a perfect marriage.. Thou, theirs were a simple marriage, but I know tt mine ll never be as perfect as theirs.. I can see u in their "Just Married" vcd.. but, what abt mine?? Watchin u smiling to them on their tea ceremony. Patting their hands and said "Happy married". What abt me??
Papa.. I miss u!! Please come back!! Will you???
I m sick of imagining hugging mummy after tea ceremony without you...
I m sick of imagining saying "Please drink my tea, Mama!!" rather than "Papa.. Mama!!!"
I m sick of without you to brush my hair anymore...
M schizophrenia, Papa..
Could u please come back!?!?! come back to me, Papa... And sing with me our favourite song..
I promise tt I will be ur good lao-san... I ll be what I sang...
MiSsY ^___~
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